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I've been going to a therapist for several months now because of my OCD and the depression that goes along with it and some things came up in the sessions that I never thought would. I knew that I was struggling with some other addictive behaviors for some years now and I just kind of passed it off as something that would change later on down the road. To put some even bigger weight on the situation is that I feel I've been literally rejected by most of my friends. I feel like no one has time for me anymore and I'm left to solve this problem on my own. I get :50 minutes a week to share with a therapist what I'm feeling but I don't have anyone in that off time to talk about things and to get things out. I've been trying to get into a "Celebrate Recovery" group in my area and it seems that no matter what doors I try to open they are always locked. I've started to think that God has given up on me and that is the reason 1) My friends have forsaken me 2) It's hard to find a group that meets my needs and 3) Why everything is so hard to deal with on my own. It seems that every testimony that I hear or read it seems that these people have other people that are there for them and help them along the way. I sometimes want to cry and get these emotions out but I feel so dry inside. I feel like I'm trying so hard NOT to go down the bad roads it just feels like I keep doing it. I don't want this to be a lifetime problem. I want to be Happy and not depressed. Please Pray for me!