I went to church today. God spoke to me through psalm 6 verse 9. The sermon series at the new church is in Love. How to love your spouse and how to love others better. The same church has 2 small groups in my area that is starting. One is called fresh start. A 10 week series to experience true change. Also, a fellowship group on Mondays. I feel like God is the only one who can save my marriage. I believe he has to change me as well in order for that to happen. I don’t see any other way. I know God has given me a lot of chances with her. I have continually failed her. I know it takes 2 and no one is perfect. I blame myself. I’m realizing how self centered and selfish I really am. I really need God to change me. I keep destroying everything around me. Please keep praying for me.