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I really don't know what to say....I feel like this could be good for me and some what be a stress reliever, I am quite sure that I am suppose to put my feelings and heart into it or maybe what I am thinking...Maybe it's more simple then that... I am not sure, but I am just going to write the first thing that comes to my head...and right now... that is relationships... I am really having a big problem with it, because I did just break up with my ex-girlfriend because our relationship was based on sex and lust...and when I did it...I was fine...happy even...something has just come over me and now...I want her back...maybe it's the devil trying to play games with me. I really don't know. Right now i want her...on the other hand... I want a christian girlfriend...Oh, I guess I forgot to mention...she is agnostic...but is not willing to to except that Jesus Christ is our lord and savior...I have been waiting way to long for the right girl...and all the girls I think are right for me they turn out not to be... I mean, I know I am not the only one right? And the girls I do find that like me...can't even hold a proper conversation...It must be the day in age or whatever, personally I would like to have an intelligent girlfriend that I could talk to instead of sitting right next to and staring at a wall!!! It is just outrageous!!! Maybe... I don't want a girlfriend deep inside... or something... maybe girls don't like me... if it's that I have no clue why!! I am smart... I can cook... I play the guitar... I am nice and sweet...I am tall, I am a good listener, I like to read, I love kids! I am willing to try new things and I am romantic... I mean isn't that what a girl wants? maybe... i am just thinking things over to much... I hate being a teenager when everyone else around me is doing fine or they play dumb... yeah,yeah, yeah people have their problems... I get it is and everyone is facing one, but who are they trying to fool? themselves? Well it looks like my blog turned into a rant ^.^ sorry for whoever is reading this... but I have a lot on my mind...and I am not looking for answers, but it's a good feeling to know that someone out there may read this and taking in everything I am saying...maybe even change, but that is asking a lot huh? hahaha, who am I kidding? well, I guess for the ones who really want to comment... I have a question...for all of you even if you don't want to answer it... What is the point for a physical relationship when we have god? and if you find it beneficiary... what is a good way of going about it? well I guess once I find something new to nag about.. I will just come back and blog again ^.^ I hope all of you are having a good night and I am here is you want to talk I love talking to new people so message me whenever you want. Until next time, ciao.