I used to go through that, but now I'm forced to believe in God.
All creation testifies to an intelligent designer.
Imagine this: You're walking through town, and suddenly you see a building that captures your interest. It's very beautiful, it seems to have a dark red and dark green color scheme. Very old style.
Now, how did the building get here? You'd answer "a builder built it". You'd be right. Have you met the builder? Touched him, saw him, smelled him? No? Yet, the building is here. There was a builder.
And you can go on further than that! You can tell some facts about the builder too! For example, we know the builder has a particular like for dark red and green.
My point in saying all this is that the creation testifies to our intelligent creator. Not only is it ridiculous that all of it came by its own chance, but it has such obvious meaning.
The creation testifies to the Creator.
I hope that helps, I can share more if you want to message me.