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LoveIsTheKey
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Hey everyone,
I just want to share an experience I recently did.
yesterday afternoon I was online on a social network and I looked at the Avatar of a friend of mine (a church-fella) and asked him about his choice of that photo he put as Avatar ( a good photo but i just was curious what has led him to put that photo).As I made him this question , he suddenly answered me back in a very bad manner and he asked me about my avatars that i put and he described them as "meaningless".
As I kept on reading what he was writing on the chat,I was kind of shocked because some day before we went out together and we spent a good evening at my home ...
I just started to think that something was wrong with him... I was at work and was busy with a phone call,so i just told him to wait online,then,when I finished the call, I got tired of writing to him about what he said,so I asked him another thing,and he answered me back quickly and then he wrote me "i have to go". I just said bye and our conversation finished.
I can honestly say that since that moment on I started to feel disappointed,shocked,I couldn't imagine the same friend whom I spent a good day with some day ago,had then become a sort of another person.
I just started to fight against bad thoughts coming into my mind about him: I was shocked.
I started to feel wounded , you know that sensation which comes into your mind and you start suffering for what happens ...
I've felt so disappointed that i started to think about all the things which went wrong in my life recently,not only for this situation
Since that moment on I just started to pray , and as I opened my Heart to God I said : " God,Why me...?".
I can honestly say that I've felt that all of this is unfair and then I started to think about the strain I had to to to set me free from all of this wound and disappointment.
During the evening I ate some good food my mom prepared.It wasn't good for my health because of some kidney stones problems,but as I sat for dinner amd saw that delicious food,I gave up...I ate that food..lol
This morning I woke up with a terrible pain on my lip and I had to wake up ,drink a lot and being awake 1 hour before I usually wake up (that means that this morning I'm more sleepy than usual
hehe
As I got up , I started to think about that situation I experienced yesterday and sarted to feel bad again..Lots of thoughts fighting my mind and plus this pain in my lips...ok I was angry... but i decided to play some song on the keyboard and started to pray ... I can say that it was hard praying: i've felt angry,tired and sleepy...so it was like "Oh God,please help me,talk to my heart.."
The thing which made me so sad was not the pain in my lip but the behaviour of this friend of mine.
After one hour I felt better and so it was time for me to get dressed and go to work. I honestly wanted to stay at home because I felt so bad ... but something in my heart led me to get up again and go to work.
As I arrived to work , I had to pay some bills at the post office near my work place. So i went there walking like a zombie on the street coz of sleep,some pills i had to take (for kidney stones problems), tireness and this wound i felt inside...
As i arrived to the post office I saw a friend of mine who is part of another christian denomination which usually in italy is not well accepted ...
As he finished paying the bill we talked a little and he explained me what he was passing through : he has 15 tumor lymph nodes throughout his whole body and he is making lot of chemotherapy which causes him lots of problems. As he was explaining this to me I could see his hope in God and how God is giving him Hope and peace in that situation. He told me :"you see John,I could have said -God,why me...? - but I didn't coz I know that it's not God,it's life...". As he was explaining me that despite some discouragement moments he has, he could feel comforted by God and that this Hope he has inside is giving him Life in God...
I've felt ashamed of myself coz i thought : God,this man has a terrible problems and probably i'd be so down in his situation and he looks so peaceful ...I feel so wounded for such a stupid thing...!
I was losing my time in such a stupid situation of mine that I couldn't see that God calls us not to think about too much about the little problems we have,but to see examples of real faith and experience..
This man's experience encouraged me and I've felt to soar over my little problem...
In that moment,I could feel God talking to my heart through a person I could never imagine to meet nor that he could tell me words that encouraged me a lot about my little problem compared to the problem of this man.
I started to think that even this man was part of a christianity not all italian churches accepts,He just shew me faith in his situation,and this helped me "not to judge a book by its cover",I mean even if he lives some doctrinal point of view different from me,I could see and feel his sincere heart in God... I was shocked...
What I have realized is two lessons to learn:
In our life there are lot of things we can complain for,but if we could look beyond our problems we'd probably see bigger problems than us which are a lesson for our life.
Second thing I learnt was : never expect to get your answer from people you think they could give you an answer but always wait for an answer from God in the way he wants and through the people he wants.
God bless
I just want to share an experience I recently did.
yesterday afternoon I was online on a social network and I looked at the Avatar of a friend of mine (a church-fella) and asked him about his choice of that photo he put as Avatar ( a good photo but i just was curious what has led him to put that photo).As I made him this question , he suddenly answered me back in a very bad manner and he asked me about my avatars that i put and he described them as "meaningless".
As I kept on reading what he was writing on the chat,I was kind of shocked because some day before we went out together and we spent a good evening at my home ...
I just started to think that something was wrong with him... I was at work and was busy with a phone call,so i just told him to wait online,then,when I finished the call, I got tired of writing to him about what he said,so I asked him another thing,and he answered me back quickly and then he wrote me "i have to go". I just said bye and our conversation finished.
I can honestly say that since that moment on I started to feel disappointed,shocked,I couldn't imagine the same friend whom I spent a good day with some day ago,had then become a sort of another person.
I just started to fight against bad thoughts coming into my mind about him: I was shocked.
I started to feel wounded , you know that sensation which comes into your mind and you start suffering for what happens ...
I've felt so disappointed that i started to think about all the things which went wrong in my life recently,not only for this situation
Since that moment on I just started to pray , and as I opened my Heart to God I said : " God,Why me...?".
I can honestly say that I've felt that all of this is unfair and then I started to think about the strain I had to to to set me free from all of this wound and disappointment.
During the evening I ate some good food my mom prepared.It wasn't good for my health because of some kidney stones problems,but as I sat for dinner amd saw that delicious food,I gave up...I ate that food..lol
This morning I woke up with a terrible pain on my lip and I had to wake up ,drink a lot and being awake 1 hour before I usually wake up (that means that this morning I'm more sleepy than usual
heheAs I got up , I started to think about that situation I experienced yesterday and sarted to feel bad again..Lots of thoughts fighting my mind and plus this pain in my lips...ok I was angry... but i decided to play some song on the keyboard and started to pray ... I can say that it was hard praying: i've felt angry,tired and sleepy...so it was like "Oh God,please help me,talk to my heart.."
The thing which made me so sad was not the pain in my lip but the behaviour of this friend of mine.
After one hour I felt better and so it was time for me to get dressed and go to work. I honestly wanted to stay at home because I felt so bad ... but something in my heart led me to get up again and go to work.
As I arrived to work , I had to pay some bills at the post office near my work place. So i went there walking like a zombie on the street coz of sleep,some pills i had to take (for kidney stones problems), tireness and this wound i felt inside...
As i arrived to the post office I saw a friend of mine who is part of another christian denomination which usually in italy is not well accepted ...
As he finished paying the bill we talked a little and he explained me what he was passing through : he has 15 tumor lymph nodes throughout his whole body and he is making lot of chemotherapy which causes him lots of problems. As he was explaining this to me I could see his hope in God and how God is giving him Hope and peace in that situation. He told me :"you see John,I could have said -God,why me...? - but I didn't coz I know that it's not God,it's life...". As he was explaining me that despite some discouragement moments he has, he could feel comforted by God and that this Hope he has inside is giving him Life in God...
I've felt ashamed of myself coz i thought : God,this man has a terrible problems and probably i'd be so down in his situation and he looks so peaceful ...I feel so wounded for such a stupid thing...!
I was losing my time in such a stupid situation of mine that I couldn't see that God calls us not to think about too much about the little problems we have,but to see examples of real faith and experience..
This man's experience encouraged me and I've felt to soar over my little problem...
In that moment,I could feel God talking to my heart through a person I could never imagine to meet nor that he could tell me words that encouraged me a lot about my little problem compared to the problem of this man.
I started to think that even this man was part of a christianity not all italian churches accepts,He just shew me faith in his situation,and this helped me "not to judge a book by its cover",I mean even if he lives some doctrinal point of view different from me,I could see and feel his sincere heart in God... I was shocked...
What I have realized is two lessons to learn:
In our life there are lot of things we can complain for,but if we could look beyond our problems we'd probably see bigger problems than us which are a lesson for our life.
Second thing I learnt was : never expect to get your answer from people you think they could give you an answer but always wait for an answer from God in the way he wants and through the people he wants.
God bless