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Hi my name is Angel and I'm married and have two kids. I need prayer because my temper seems to be getting worse than better. I scream at my husband and my kids when I get upset. ANother problem I have is that it is hard sometimes for me to be truly intimate of loving to my husband because I have trust issues. Reason for this is that starting at the age of four until I turned ten years old I was molested by my stepfather and my brothers and I have saw one of my brothers molesting my twin brother. I have seen some things that I really didn't need to see. When I was 14 I started thinking I needed a man two complete me so this is where I gave my body to someone. When I was 15 I found myself in an abusive relationship and this person also brought me an std but thank God it wasn't two serious it couldn't be cured. As I got older I found myself dating and dating and being sexually active. It is also hard because I saw my mother doing things like this and is in her third marriage. I don't want to be like that and not saying that she is not a good person just saying I want to live a better life than what I have been living. I love God and I desire to live for him and do his will but it is hard for me to let these things go. My hold life I have been teased because I broke my two front teeth when I was eight. When I was in the fifth grade my teacher use to talk about the way I smelled to the class and I was also teased about how I looked. SO basically my life know is like this I'm self conscious, I have low self- esteem, I'm emotional, and very sensitive. So I cry a lot ever since I was a child and in the past month I wanted to kill myself because I felt like I had nothing to live for. The other problem is I have low self- esteem and my husband is addicted to porno, he likes to flirt with other women and look at other women on the net or in person and thinks its okay. His life was basically like he was molested as well as a child His mother and father gave him away to his father's parents and they are basically like brothers. He has no respect for women because he has no respect for his mother. He calls women female dogs, whores, and etc but he was raised in church his grandparents are pastors. He father is still in his life but he listens to a lot of things he say and his father shows him that it is okay to cheat on your wife , smoke marijuana, and to get drunk. I know there is a call on both of our lives and the devil is trying to take us out and I need help and prayer to remove all these stumbling blocks and strongholds out of our life and our journey and he is running from God but I know the fear of God is in him but it is hard for him because he lets his friends and some of his family lead him in the wrong paths. Can somebody help and pray for me and my family so we want make the same mistakes twice. I also want us to break the generational curse of whoredom and adultery.
