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Why in the world do we have to have a sin nature because of Adam and Eve? I hate it when I do things that are wrong, and it makes me miserable to think that I'm such a complete failure. I wanted to do God's will because I loved Him with my whole heart and soul and never wanted to do anything against Him. Living life with the guilt and self-hatred seems so stupid. If God is so loving and wants us to be completely devoted to Him, why do we have to mess up even though deep down we don't want to? I tried going back to God for a little while, but I kept doing and saying things that I wish I never had. Because of that, I hate myself so much. I never wanted to disobey God! I loved Him and wanted to do His will! Why in the world does being a Christian have to be so complicated! Gosh, I feel like I always have to worry about everything because it might not be "Christlike", and someone might go to hell because of something I did. I know we're forgiven of our sins, but that still doesn't take away the feeling of "*** why did I do that!!! I'm such an idiot!!!!!!" It seems like being a Christian puts so much more worry and guilt on a person than if that person wasn't a Christian and didn't have to worry about possibly being the reason someone is going to spend eternity in hell. Being a Christian seems like it's so confusing and hard to figure out. It's like it's just a bunch of guilt trips and hard-to-figure-out theology. Why can't Christians agree on things? Isn't the Bible supposed to be inerrant? There's so many other things about God that just don't make sense. It seems like it would be so much easier to live without all the worry, disagreement, guilt, and self-hatred. Why do we have to have a sin nature, even though we don't want it?