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i worked hard to have spiritual blessings for my life and store up knowledge, but now the world and men have harmed my mind and my body and my comings and goings on earth, so much so that i'm not sure my life is going to be worth anything anymore
to know that you knew jesus, that i had a life that the Lord had given me, to know it just took a little work if given the right environment, and now it seems to be all gone
i don't know how much more of this i can take
prayer and love is not changing the evil, faithless man that i have to live with because it is my mother's husband
i am always thinking about what life could have been and could still be if people did not only care about themselves and what they can get out of life and not seeing another survive and be successful
he is not my husband, he is not my dad, and he should be showing me respect as my mother's daughter
but instead he causes spiritual damager and steals the blessings that i have been given and worked for in this life
i had a good future ahead of me, going to college, and fixing my mistakes, but life has not afforded me the opporunity to do what i am capable of giving
instead every moment, the God of the earth lacks patience and does not want to save my life
i am so close to wanting to die because i know what evil and what harmful things i have already happened and what might happen in the future
it would be so easy, all they have to do is start giving instead of being just takers
they are usurping my energy, and have stolen my happiness in this lifetime
to know that you knew jesus, that i had a life that the Lord had given me, to know it just took a little work if given the right environment, and now it seems to be all gone
i don't know how much more of this i can take
prayer and love is not changing the evil, faithless man that i have to live with because it is my mother's husband
i am always thinking about what life could have been and could still be if people did not only care about themselves and what they can get out of life and not seeing another survive and be successful
he is not my husband, he is not my dad, and he should be showing me respect as my mother's daughter
but instead he causes spiritual damager and steals the blessings that i have been given and worked for in this life
i had a good future ahead of me, going to college, and fixing my mistakes, but life has not afforded me the opporunity to do what i am capable of giving
instead every moment, the God of the earth lacks patience and does not want to save my life
i am so close to wanting to die because i know what evil and what harmful things i have already happened and what might happen in the future
it would be so easy, all they have to do is start giving instead of being just takers
they are usurping my energy, and have stolen my happiness in this lifetime