pt 2
As I previously mentioned, my Dad could catch fish in a bucket!! though I tried, I just didnt have the skill or patience....later would be diagnosed with ADD...not widely known in those days...as I grew into my teen years....I still went fishing with dad, but now if I got bored I could go up to the shore and swim, or watch girls, hang out with friends, or watch girls.......play games in the arcade ,or watch girls!!!!! I think you get the picture....
I had a little box with a few lures and my own tackle so If The Perch weren't biting I would walk a little ways down the pier and cast for awhile... I still wasn't catching many ...in truth ANY, but it broke up the anxiety of just sitting in one place.......
Dad would inevitably berate me in some fashion, saying "YOUR THE DUMBEST KID I KNOW" and other such statements... He would say these things to me personally and to his Card buddies and others....I would feel very hurt.... but kept it in....
As I Grew into late teens, I began exploring Career choices and paths....and two options came into focus, SALES, OR THE MINISTRY. You may not have noticed but Im quite a story teller (GABBER)!! so both of those would be great options....I would mention hese things to my parents Mom would say positive things...DADS Favorite statement ......It still hurt...but I was by this time very resilient...
By the end of High School, I had made the decision to go into the ministry...I would make MOODY BIBLE SCHOOL my college choice.....But I didnt....Ive already told you about how life took a dark turn......and all my christian aspirations would fall into only a clouded memory....
I married, divorced, and remarried, now with a child and one on the way......factory life (though I tried) wasnt for me...SALES IT IS!!!
I tried several different avenues in That field, from Direct marketing to pyramid type, selling everything from satellite dishes, to rainbow vacuums , to vitamins and household products....all were difficult and i wasnt making the money needed to support my growing family.... FRUSTRATION ANGER, FEAR... at times these emotions would spill through to my family... causing deeper frustration..
I would find my self using some of the same negative type words and phrases to my children That I hated so badly to hear from my Father....This frustrated me as well because I had vowed to not become like my father and his negative comments, and show love and compassion on my family.......but alas...I was more like my father than I cared to admit.
My two final careers were , PAGE ONE RECORDS, A RECORD - BOOK - SPORT CARD shop BACK IN MY OLD STOMPING GROUNDS Lakeside!!! I owned and operated that for almost 10 years......After a Brief Hiatus I found myself in a career of Furniture sales with Art Van Furniture....for 11 years..... while there I would learn and study the true art of sales. I would also learn how to interact with different types of people and personalities...putting aside any judgement or prejudices. Art Van had an extensive training program and many many product and sales seminars, to which we were invited and encouraged to attend... I absorbed the craft and all that I could learn about inside retail sales......I became one of, if not the best RECLINING furniture sales people in the store.
My success in the business of sales with Art Van, required 10 hour days, and weekends, in spite of what people may think, a sales career is EXHAUSTING.. I would come home dead tired, not able to engage with my family....Though the company was Family Friendly and made many exceptions to extra time off or special allowances for breaks etc...I Did have to make money to support my family..... so I was very careful not to overstep my loss of hours due to family activities......AFTER all IT was because of my success we were able to have FAMILY ACTIVITIES!!
A Singer by the Name HARRY CHAPIN , RECORDED A SONG CALLED "CAT'S IN THE CRADLE" which told the story of a busy father who due to his work and job didnt spend the time needed nurturing his family...and as he watches his son fall into the same trap realizes too late the error of his ways.
I learned a lot about relationships, personalities, overcoming objections...to not be afraid of failure, or rejection, integrity, truthfulness, dedication ALL VERY GOOD QUALITIES which after returning to my Christian roots I would see as further leading of GOD through the maze of life....
Exo 20:5 you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the LORD your God, [am] a jealous God, visiting the sins of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth [generations] ...
Today, I have a daughter caught up in Drugs Prostitution, adulterous relationships...and a son whom I havent spoken to in 3+ years.....
MY FATHER IN HEAVEN HAS FORGIVEN ME...HAS RESTORED ME...HAS GUIDED ME GENTLY THROUGH THIS MAZE CALLED LIFE!!!
God Breaks Cycles, habits and sinful bends, He restores, redeems....
My Trust is in Him Alone!!!!!!
THE CYCLE HAS BEEN BROKEN!!!
God Bless,
Clarence
As I previously mentioned, my Dad could catch fish in a bucket!! though I tried, I just didnt have the skill or patience....later would be diagnosed with ADD...not widely known in those days...as I grew into my teen years....I still went fishing with dad, but now if I got bored I could go up to the shore and swim, or watch girls, hang out with friends, or watch girls.......play games in the arcade ,or watch girls!!!!! I think you get the picture....
I had a little box with a few lures and my own tackle so If The Perch weren't biting I would walk a little ways down the pier and cast for awhile... I still wasn't catching many ...in truth ANY, but it broke up the anxiety of just sitting in one place.......
Dad would inevitably berate me in some fashion, saying "YOUR THE DUMBEST KID I KNOW" and other such statements... He would say these things to me personally and to his Card buddies and others....I would feel very hurt.... but kept it in....
As I Grew into late teens, I began exploring Career choices and paths....and two options came into focus, SALES, OR THE MINISTRY. You may not have noticed but Im quite a story teller (GABBER)!! so both of those would be great options....I would mention hese things to my parents Mom would say positive things...DADS Favorite statement ......It still hurt...but I was by this time very resilient...
By the end of High School, I had made the decision to go into the ministry...I would make MOODY BIBLE SCHOOL my college choice.....But I didnt....Ive already told you about how life took a dark turn......and all my christian aspirations would fall into only a clouded memory....
I married, divorced, and remarried, now with a child and one on the way......factory life (though I tried) wasnt for me...SALES IT IS!!!
I tried several different avenues in That field, from Direct marketing to pyramid type, selling everything from satellite dishes, to rainbow vacuums , to vitamins and household products....all were difficult and i wasnt making the money needed to support my growing family.... FRUSTRATION ANGER, FEAR... at times these emotions would spill through to my family... causing deeper frustration..
I would find my self using some of the same negative type words and phrases to my children That I hated so badly to hear from my Father....This frustrated me as well because I had vowed to not become like my father and his negative comments, and show love and compassion on my family.......but alas...I was more like my father than I cared to admit.
My two final careers were , PAGE ONE RECORDS, A RECORD - BOOK - SPORT CARD shop BACK IN MY OLD STOMPING GROUNDS Lakeside!!! I owned and operated that for almost 10 years......After a Brief Hiatus I found myself in a career of Furniture sales with Art Van Furniture....for 11 years..... while there I would learn and study the true art of sales. I would also learn how to interact with different types of people and personalities...putting aside any judgement or prejudices. Art Van had an extensive training program and many many product and sales seminars, to which we were invited and encouraged to attend... I absorbed the craft and all that I could learn about inside retail sales......I became one of, if not the best RECLINING furniture sales people in the store.
My success in the business of sales with Art Van, required 10 hour days, and weekends, in spite of what people may think, a sales career is EXHAUSTING.. I would come home dead tired, not able to engage with my family....Though the company was Family Friendly and made many exceptions to extra time off or special allowances for breaks etc...I Did have to make money to support my family..... so I was very careful not to overstep my loss of hours due to family activities......AFTER all IT was because of my success we were able to have FAMILY ACTIVITIES!!
A Singer by the Name HARRY CHAPIN , RECORDED A SONG CALLED "CAT'S IN THE CRADLE" which told the story of a busy father who due to his work and job didnt spend the time needed nurturing his family...and as he watches his son fall into the same trap realizes too late the error of his ways.
I learned a lot about relationships, personalities, overcoming objections...to not be afraid of failure, or rejection, integrity, truthfulness, dedication ALL VERY GOOD QUALITIES which after returning to my Christian roots I would see as further leading of GOD through the maze of life....
Exo 20:5 you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the LORD your God, [am] a jealous God, visiting the sins of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth [generations] ...
Today, I have a daughter caught up in Drugs Prostitution, adulterous relationships...and a son whom I havent spoken to in 3+ years.....
MY FATHER IN HEAVEN HAS FORGIVEN ME...HAS RESTORED ME...HAS GUIDED ME GENTLY THROUGH THIS MAZE CALLED LIFE!!!
God Breaks Cycles, habits and sinful bends, He restores, redeems....
My Trust is in Him Alone!!!!!!
THE CYCLE HAS BEEN BROKEN!!!
God Bless,
Clarence