It's easy for most of us to give advice from personal experience. I like reading the Psalms, just start at Psalms 1 and keep going, they go-to depressed or anxious scripture that can refocus me. The problem is, you're describing a level of difficulty that goes beyond what most of us experience, and, like Billyd, ditto you're describing a problem that you need to talk to somebody professional about. Luke was a physician. I have great reluctance over drugs, because they don't help all people, a percentage getting worse. Something important is a proper diagnosis, before drugs, that you are suffering depression or some anxiety disorder and are not, in fact, bipolar, a condition antidepressant drugs can amplify. It's complicated, but we've all had to resort to medical professionals of one sort or another. In any case, you don't want to let a debilitating problem fester that's crippling, any more than you would an infection. As to drugs, not all are of an addictive nature, nerve agents, rather many alter brain chemical balances, slowly. To be honest, I don't like any of it, but it beats shaking in a corner or the desperation reflected in repeated suicide thoughts and attempts, which are not normal and need all possible plans of attack, spiritual and medical.