You have to remember...that as a Christian, the devil is out to get you. He wants you to be tired of being a Christian, so you will give up and he wins! He will throw many things at you to make you feel all of the negative things you are feeling, but you have to do something David did, that just makes my day! And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God I Sam 30:6. Sometimeswe just have to be tired of being tired, seek God for ourselves and allow him to lift our spirits. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things Phil 4:8. Don'tforget about Job. This man lost EVERYTHING but his wife, but she even told him to curse God and die. He refused. Job was a real man, who went through extreme devastation! I believe his story was shared to show us how low a man can be, but what can happen if just holds on to God and fights through the trials. Your thoughts reminded me of the many people Jesus made whole throughout the Four Gospels, whether it was encouraging someone and saving their lives, such as the Adulterous Woman or the Samaritan woman, to those he literally healed of an ailment. But before he did any of it, he required something of each of them. Sometimes they had to obey and take action on something he told them to do, sometimes they just had to have faith and believe, but he required of each of them to take some sort of action in order to receive their blessing and deliverance. He requires that of us too. Consider the scriptures and stories and remember...For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jer 29:11