I've always loved my big sister. I always took her side and put aside my fears of losing friendships and getting beaten up to defend her. I would listen to her talk about her day and her feelings for hours and I always catered to her. I have always put what she wanted and what she needed in front of myself. I know everything about her, but she doesn't know a thing about me. She never took my side and she has always looked down on me. I've only ever given her the best of what I had and all I hear is what she doesn't like about me. I don't listen to the right music, I don't watch the right movies, I'm a Vegan, I love the Torah, etc. She did this before I was saved when I hated myself and GOD, ate crap, never took a shower, and watched tv all day and she's still doing it now that I'm actually quite happy with myself and know that Yahshua is my Messiah. I (along with my mom and brother) put my life on hold this year to come help her with her two kids and she treats us like criminals and listens to the lies that those close to her (not her family) have said about us. She doesn't even ask us what really happened before she jumps down our throats. We bend over backwards day in and day out for her and those kids and now she doesn't think they are safe with us after we told her that her crazy boyfriend is smoking weed around her children. I don't know how to be like Yahshua here. I don't know how to tolerate my own family mistrusting me this way when I have never EVER given them a reason to.