Ah I see - so basically - you won't tolerate me asking questions about something I don't understand, or something which provokes thought and causes me to seek a deeper understanding of. You also won't tolerate me holding up my current template of understanding and comparing it to yours in order to gain insight then either. In short - it's your way or the highway then?
Nah, it's Gods way or the highway.
Lets say you were to seek a loan.
and you go to the bank
and the first teller says they cannot approve your request.
but you are diligent in seeking what you came for.
what is your next step in the procedure?
Go over that persons head in authority.
So you seek a manager
The manager says he cannot approve your request.
But you are diligent and do not take no for an answer
What next?
Go over that person's head straight to the top for the answer you seek
what I'm instructing you to do...is go over all our heads.
And go to the final authority.
The Creator himself.
Why do you seek God through man. As if trying to seek a loan through a broker instead of going straight to the owner?
You could just as easily seek God by asking him to reveal himself to you.
but first...you have to seek
his words.
But I feel that's the problem, you are seeking others to convince you.
It is more difficult to read his word, and try to decide if you want to believe.
When You must first decide to believe what God says, then go read his word.