Because you posted this on here, you must truly want a "real," solid reason to believe in God despite what happened to your son.First off, my condolences friend. I am deeply sorry to hear about what has happened. I would ask you to hear me out on a true little story that comes from experience that is exactly like yours... Hopefully this will help you in this matter. Years ago, when a good Christian father like yourself was about the celebrate the birth of his two twin sons, the doctor told him that one of them would die. A heart problem made it impossible for the younger of his two sons to survive beyond a few hours, and any attempted surgery to fix the problem would have a 0% success rate. The father in this true story had lived a hard life, worked his very best, had given his all to God his whole life, and this moment may have been one of his first happy ones. He prayed, naturally, in his religious mindset. And yet God still let the younger son die. They baptized him before death even though it seemed to the father that God was neither present nor caring of the obedient, seemingly useless motion. The man was at the end of his hope, and perhaps the near end of his faith, if not the complete end. In this true story that I am a member of, the man read the Bible, right in the book of Job where the suffering of a righteous man is left unanswered until the end, but with no real explanation... Finally, the man was at his end, and looked around for some sign of hope from a God who seemed dead or nonexistent. There it was. Laughing on the chest of his wife... the other twin son that hadn't died. That man, my father, concluded that he would rather be thankful for what bounty he had been given, the testament to God's continued presence, and rejoice in what he had. He concluded that his son was not gone, but waiting for him on the other side. This idea has given him a life of Hope, knowing that instead of living a life of bitterness in waiting for nothing after a useless existence, he can enjoy Love and Peace with a real future to look forward to! The man hadn't lost anything, but gained all the more...To this day, my father is one of the happiest and best men I know, and he looks forward to meeting my younger twin brother in heaven. This is the story he told me of his faith and my brother. He claims that the reason he is able to keep on being such a strong man for me, my sister, and his wife, is because he has someone far more important who has given him so much more... God. And he would rather meet his son in heaven than live unhappily here and die to a void... He is the strongest man I know. Please be strong for your family now.Lastly, if you wish to say that God is responsible for your son's death, mustn't you also say that he is conversely responsible for his life? Can you be thankful that he had a life and lived it with you for a time? Can you believe that he is not forever gone from you, or would you rather believe he is in darkness faded, just as you would be then, when your bitterness expires in a bang and a whimper. How sad.From the sheer logical perspective, if you are blaming God for being a villain, than how can he not exist if he is actually doing villainous things? I'm not saying that he killed your son, but if you are blaming him for that, than how can you say he doesn't exist? There is a logical fallacy here. Non-existent people can't do things. And if you believe the devil to be better for being straightforward, than you have no right to moralize against God. Added to that, you wouldn't even have an idea of wrong to moralize to God about if he wasn't there, since He invented morality in the first place.Choose what my father chose in this hour of darkness my friend. Choose Hope and Light. You may see your son smile yet, and even better than that the God who gave you everything you still have... your life, wife, son in heaven, the past smiles you shared with him, etc...God bless you,---The Surviving Twin Brother