God is with you right now....I hate the invisible thing with a passion and wish we could see eye to eye like Adam and Eve did walking with God in the garden....Why oh why did they disobey?
Direction....first pray about what and where God wants you to be church wise and then get the local phone directory and start visiting churches for a while praying that God will direct you to where He would have you end up. I would make sure the church teaches and preaches salvation through Jesus and are active in spreading the gospel/good news that Jesus Saves.
Pray God helps you find the job that He wants you in and then beat the internet to death as it seems you must apply online these days....I personally am not too fond of this as no one sees a real person so impersonal to me but they didn't ask my opinion it's just the way things are in today's world....I pray you will find what you are seeking
Just know that God does love you and He is a big enough God to take your yelling at Him....I remember I was angry at Him one time walking across a parking lot to my car saying I'm not talking to You....and I heard a little chuckle in my head with a question.....What are you doing now? Yep, even though I was mad I was still talking to Him and best part was He was listening.