Instead if the word "church" think "community" or "family!" We met at the beach for worship, baptisms and a message from a pastor called to reach street people. We camped all weekend. Everyone cooked, cleaned, helped with the children, and used their gifts.
God blessed us with the Holy Spirit touching hearts and lives. We shared different ways to reach the lost in our hometown.
That is what "church" is all about! It is love, caring, teaching, sharing. It is the presence of God in our midst, and strangers becoming friends.
When I got saved 36 years ago, I came out of a background of being a professional musician. I gave my music to God, and trusted he would get me into a worship ministry where I would become famous. Instead, God gently humbled and taught me to be a servant, to play and sing when he called me. I pretty much always played flute, sang or led worship, but the "famous" part fell away long, long ago. I found a greater gift being sensitive and using my talents and skills to glorify God. I praise him for that!
God developed my character and shaped and molded me more through not getting famous than he ever could have if I had become a household name in Christian circles!
Yet, you speak out of thwarted ambition and bitterness for not receiving what you thought you deserved. The OP is one is the most bitter, broken testimonies I have ever read. It breaks my heart to see how arrogant you are towards God, and blaming it on men, when it is God you are so angry with.
Don't you you think if God wanted you in authority in music, teaching or preaching, that he wouldn't have done it? With God nothing is impossible! The angels are weeping that you do not trust him enough for a ministry other than false condemnation.