Grab a snack peoples, I have a story to tell.
There's a young woman I know who is only a couple years younger than me. Her and I are great friends. And for the longest time I have wanted to date her. I used to have a pretty big crush on her, now it's only a small crush. She's just... wow. More or less everything I'd want in a woman. Highly intelligent - I wouldn't doubt if she has a genius level IQ, compassionate, endearing, devoutly Christian, and has a passion for life. I really like how she's always trying to better herself. She has amazing artistic ability that she is always improving. She even dabbles in some web development!
I really don't think I've ever clicked with someone quite like I have with her. If I have ever met someone who I would call my soulmate, it's probably her. We frequently have deep conversations about our faith and life in general and as a rule of thumb we make a point to ask each other how our day was.
Seems like I've found a good mate, right? Nope, got some obstacles, if not outright deal breakers. And this is what makes things difficult for me. First off, I can tell she's got a lot of hurt that hasn't been addressed. She's very shy and introverted, more so than I. She was the quiet, weird kid in school who was bullied terribly. Her parents had a nasty divorce. I feel like she's bottling things up more than addressing them. Second of all, I believe her father to be a false prophet. He once made a prophesy about me that was of a personal matter but not only was it wrong it was inappropriate, and I still hold disdain toward him. Third, physically speaking she's not very attractive, although I find her better looking IRL than in photos.
This is one of those parts of life that really suck. Something wonderful so close to me... yet I cannot grab it.
There's a young woman I know who is only a couple years younger than me. Her and I are great friends. And for the longest time I have wanted to date her. I used to have a pretty big crush on her, now it's only a small crush. She's just... wow. More or less everything I'd want in a woman. Highly intelligent - I wouldn't doubt if she has a genius level IQ, compassionate, endearing, devoutly Christian, and has a passion for life. I really like how she's always trying to better herself. She has amazing artistic ability that she is always improving. She even dabbles in some web development!
I really don't think I've ever clicked with someone quite like I have with her. If I have ever met someone who I would call my soulmate, it's probably her. We frequently have deep conversations about our faith and life in general and as a rule of thumb we make a point to ask each other how our day was.
Seems like I've found a good mate, right? Nope, got some obstacles, if not outright deal breakers. And this is what makes things difficult for me. First off, I can tell she's got a lot of hurt that hasn't been addressed. She's very shy and introverted, more so than I. She was the quiet, weird kid in school who was bullied terribly. Her parents had a nasty divorce. I feel like she's bottling things up more than addressing them. Second of all, I believe her father to be a false prophet. He once made a prophesy about me that was of a personal matter but not only was it wrong it was inappropriate, and I still hold disdain toward him. Third, physically speaking she's not very attractive, although I find her better looking IRL than in photos.
This is one of those parts of life that really suck. Something wonderful so close to me... yet I cannot grab it.