I just feel so empty. I feel somewhat like the Lord has left me and I feel so alone. I have tried to have faith but I just feel so weak. I continue to ask for saving faith but i just don't know. I pray that this is all just a temporary trial to bring me closer to Jesus and to build within me a strong faith. I just feel so dead inside and I feel like there is no hope for me.
This is something I came across a while back, it might help:
But the Lord is with me as a mighty, awesome One. Therefore my persecutors
will stumble, and will not prevail… —Jeremiah 20: 11
DO YOU KNOW that the best time to thank Jesus for His presence is when you
don’t “feel” His presence? When it comes to the presence of Jesus, don’t go by
your feelings. Feelings can be deceptive. Go by His promise that He is Immanuel—God
with us! Feelings aren’t based on truth. God’s Word is truth!
Have you heard the story of a groom who approached his pastor almost immediately
after his wedding ceremony? He went up to his pastor and said, “Pastor, can I talk
to you for a second?” “Sure,” the pastor replied. The groom said, “You know what,
I don’t feel married.” The pastor grabbed him by the collar and growled, “Listen, boy.
You ARE married whether you feel it or not, understand? Just take it by faith that
you are married!” You see, my friend, you can’t go by your feelings. You go by the truth
and the truth is this: God promised, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So the best
time to practice His presence is precisely when you feel like Jesus is 100,000 miles away.
Remember that feelings aren’t based on truth. God’s Word is truth!