How convenient! No more 'sin"..NO more guilt to worry about. Humanness is the ultimate culprit. People are just human, after all, right? THere is not a single 'religion" or faith in the world today that that does NOT say humanity is made up of 3 characteristics: Body, Mind, and Spirit. All 3 need to be in sync and harmony in order to have a natural balance. You seem to 'have it all together" in your mind, but what of the body and spirit? If your spirituality is not 'working well', it makes the body and mind off kilter. If your body is not functioning properly, it effects the other two. If your mind is twisted, of course it corrupts your body and spirit. Only for a short while you may feel great and think you have it all figured out...but soon enough, as the BIBLE says "Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess that JESUS CHRIST is LORD"..and that includes you and I and all those who profess JESUS or do NOT profess JESUS. GOD never forces His self upon anyone. He simply wants His creation to come to HIM as a child, with childlike faith, no preconceptions and allow HIS holy spirit to be within us. This euphoria you are presently in is short lived. The sad thing is, you never had a real 'heart" connection with GOD, you simply had a 'religious" experience, a 'head" experience, if you will. If you truely were a Christ follower and not a 'church' follower, you would have grown spiritually to the point where by now there would be no way you would deny CHRIST. You chose the path of least resistence. It is so much easier to follow the world's ways. This gives you NO bragging rights. It simply means it's a matter of time before you will have to face GOD and try to explain why you posted such sorrowful conclusions. Do not expect a parade in your honor here...but, I and many others will pray that you will soon enough see the LIGHT!