Hi Blain, sorry for how you FEEL, but you have nothing to feel ashamed about. The previous post was a great answer, follow thru. Usually, but not always, a person feels like they need wisdom because they are surrounded by people who think they are more spiritual than others. If that's the case, get some new friends. I don't know if facing your challenges head on is the best way to beat them or not as you posed the question. I don't think it matters if u sneek up behind it & beat it with a sucker punch, as long as you win it doesn't matter how you do it. Avoid triggers.Pray, pray,pray. Don't be scared of them. You can dispose of them. I'm scared of a spider biting me, but I can crush it before it bites me, & I'm confident in that.I have seen you on here seeking wisdom, so I don't know why u say u stopped seeking God's wisdom. Some of these posts, but certainly not all, provoke you to seek out God's wisdom. Others don't even seem spritual.Sounds like you have way too many emotions ruling your day. Don't allow emotions to control u. Blain the Bible says (sorry don't recall where)(sorry for the bold typo),, that God talks to us in our sleep. Set a notebook or recorder near your bed & write down your dreams & impressions before you forget them. I bet God does answer you. We just dismiss it. Not all are God's msg, but check to see.We get answers sometimes that we don't recognize as answers. With the risk of people saying this is not Christian etc, I'm going to tell you a "joke", sort of, anyway. I think it's Christian.
A man was standing on his roof to avoid flood waters. A man came by in a boat & offered him a ride to leave the area. The man on the roof said "No, I'm waiting on God to save me". A helicopter came by & lowered it's ladder, & the man on the roof declined their offer as well, saying he was waiting on God to save him. The man on the roof drowned. When he got to heaven he asked God why God didn't save him. God told the man that HE sent a boat & a helicopter. Blain, you are not spiritually inferior to anyone here. Take rest In jesus. Then pray to beat these untrue thoughts & overcome your trials. Don't ever give up. God bless you.