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I am a wife with one daughter, Jesus entered into my life 8 years ago, I love god and see the wonderful miracles he has worked, I am having trouble right now with my faith. In December my husband told me he didn't know if he loved me and the reason we got married in the first place was because I wanted it so badly. We had our daughter out of wedlock. Both have been married before. At that time he told me all of this he had been spending a lot of time with a friend. A woman he
wouldn't come home until the next morning. Later in January he told me he had feelings for this person but things never wenot past that. at that time I lost hope and faith. I started a texting relationship with someone I figured if he was doing it, but it got out of hand and I sent inappropriate texts
to to this person. Husband found out and we ended up going to counselling. He is still having this relationship with this other person and it has been going on for years, he is nice and respectful to her, but with me he was always angry and disrespectful cruel even. I told him all I wanted was to be shown love and respect like he does for this other person he texts and still goes over there alot. She is out of work so he had her help out on our farm. I am trying to not dislike her and pray for god to bless her, but I am jealous of the time and energy he is spending there and not with his own family. We went to a counselor and after that it was good for a week then I had to leave for business and when I got back it was all like it was before. With the angry words and cut downs. I know I hurt him, but at the same time I was hurting...it doesn't make it right what I did, I am just praying and asking go to lead him in The right path of forgiveness and so he sees what could be a wonderful relationship. I have been going to counseling. One of the things is that he is never home always runNing the farm or working fixing things for people, we never talk and now it seems he doesn't want me to help out with the farm like I use tof do.
wouldn't come home until the next morning. Later in January he told me he had feelings for this person but things never wenot past that. at that time I lost hope and faith. I started a texting relationship with someone I figured if he was doing it, but it got out of hand and I sent inappropriate texts
to to this person. Husband found out and we ended up going to counselling. He is still having this relationship with this other person and it has been going on for years, he is nice and respectful to her, but with me he was always angry and disrespectful cruel even. I told him all I wanted was to be shown love and respect like he does for this other person he texts and still goes over there alot. She is out of work so he had her help out on our farm. I am trying to not dislike her and pray for god to bless her, but I am jealous of the time and energy he is spending there and not with his own family. We went to a counselor and after that it was good for a week then I had to leave for business and when I got back it was all like it was before. With the angry words and cut downs. I know I hurt him, but at the same time I was hurting...it doesn't make it right what I did, I am just praying and asking go to lead him in The right path of forgiveness and so he sees what could be a wonderful relationship. I have been going to counseling. One of the things is that he is never home always runNing the farm or working fixing things for people, we never talk and now it seems he doesn't want me to help out with the farm like I use tof do.