Hi,
Rawnreal!
Excuse me for not thinking your way and allow me to tell, in short:
1) "...
physical affection is something God cant give. " GOD CAN give both physical and EMOTIONAL (this last is the one enduring life time), so
I recomend you to develope the emotional side, which seems somewhat weak in all of us, according to what I guess by reading it here. The emotional side is the one remaining in us to the last and golden days
2) Believe it or not, online will help you develop your emotional background to make you emotionally stronger. I don´t know the reasons why you might have been rejected or those why you have rejected those you properly left (your own business) but internet is more
emotionally profilactic but, if you have lacked real life experiences in interacting with the person you´ve dream about, you need to gain that experiences somewhere and JUST TO KNOW YOURSELF more.
3) I´m sure you know one thing is said and another thing is shwon when you meet people personally but, learning -at distance- from those you think you like will benefit you when they approached you in person. Just ask those ladies who learned the heard way. I don´t recommend you those "Online dating" (it´s just another business) but real life and you certainly DO WELL ASKING GOD to be lead to that one GOD might have chosen just for you.
May the Almighthy bless you to find the one you think you deserve but, I hope you also think if you are ready, very well trained and prapared to be in a process of courship and marriage, because that man also would be expecting you to be perfect just for him and we humans tend to think it too selfishly, while we don´t OFTEN deserve to be loved or admired.
Few thoughts to chew!