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My husband and I have been married for a year and a half. We have been together 2 and a half years. We have two small babies together. Lately we have been having issues in our marriage. Neither one of us has seen a successful marriage so we don't know how to be married. We have been separated since January 10. At that time my husband informed myself and my family that he no longer loved me and that he did not want to be with me. A few weeks later we ended up talking and he said he truly did love me but was tired of constant fighting. We agreed that we wanted to work on our marriage. About a month after that we got in a fight and he said that he was done. He didn't want to work on our marriage anymore. A few weeks after that my husband rededicated his life to Christ and was Baptized. Since then he has been actively pursuing classes through the church and even marriage counseling. I have been frightened that he only wanted to work on our marriage for our kids. (He loves them more than anything. Sometimes to the point I can honestly say I am jealous.) My husband spoke to the couple who are wanting to counsel us and after he spoke to them he said me a text saying that he had a lot on his mind. I asked him what all was said and if he was ok. He responded by saying he was worried that he wanted our marriage to work more for the kids than for us. He said he did love me but was scared to death that he wanted to work on our marriage for the kids. Now I'm sitting in my mom's family room trying not to cry. I've been so badly hurt but have done everything I can for this man. My husband was not raised in a Christian home. I introduced him back to church (his family used to go on special occasions). He is really stressed out about a lot of things and he is trying to straighten out his confusion. I joined this site because I need someone to speak with that won't take my side or his but will pray for me and talk with me about what I need to do. I am getting to the point that I don't care if he ends up wanting to stay with me or not, I just want to get past this pain. I have been going through this for a long time now. I don't want to think like that but this hurts too much. If anyone has any positive words of encouragement that would be great.