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I have comiited adultery broke my kids were born, I repented then did it again ..repented then met someone who changed me k fell I love with him he was ready to look after my kids take everything on but I was afraid to because I thought of my husband. My kids. Then when he called it quits for good. I felt devastated. Now because this is all happened I feel so ashamed so stupid, I have everything a wife could want , a though my husband isn't Christian he is far more pure than me! I have sinned and I need help. My children mean everything to me and I want to love their dad like I once did. I feel like I have failed so bad. If he were to know he will surely divorce me. I can't hurt him anymore than I already have this past year since the I've been loving on another man I have pushed my husband away, fought with him, hated on him and stop being intamite. How can a woman that beloved in God and for what has God done for me how can I do that?! How heartless am I?! I believe Jesus stopped the other man and convicted him so that God was able to make me feel as low as I am feeling. I cried on my husbands shoulder yesterday and all he says is " baby tell me what's bothering you, look at what we have We are so blessed" how can I have screwed this up so badly my heart is broken I have broken Gods heart. I have failed my duty as a wife and mother. Al j wanna do is cry in bed I'm still in my pjs and it's 1pm I have no enegergy. I am so ashamed so weak so stupid. I need some prayer I need help. Lord help me. Restore my life. Bring coulor back to my world.