Ok, I get it!
So what are the blessings of celibacy that I am not realizing?
Believe me, I don't like living with regret.
I want to trust god again and believe that he hears MY prayers. Knowing that god answers everybody else's prayer doesn't help me to understand why I'm forced into celibacy.
This is not about my wife or my marriage. sure we talk about it, she doesn't like it, I don't force it on her, that's it.
I did not choose celibacy for myself and I don't like it.
No you don't.
No. You. Do. Not.
If you wanted to trust Gd again you would at least try no matter what stands in your way.
You wanna talk to me about sex? Yeah? You want to go there?
I have a whole story about me that no one on here knows, I KNOW HOW DESIRABLE SEX CAN BE. THAT IS NOT GOD'S FAULT!
He answers your prayers as well, just sometimes the answer is no....
When I was little I used to get on my knees and pray for an hour every night for my father's abuse to stop, to be loved by my family. Did his abuse stopped? Nope. Did I become loved? No.
Did God answer my prayers? Yup. But the answer was no.
It is hard to see how much he is helping. I get it, I've been there and back more than once. I understand more than you think I do, and that is true for many.
I can understand how your frustrated. You feel like you've been so loyal, and good by abiding to God's laws or rules for us.
But let's just think about this....
Have you read the book of Job?
If so,
Job was very loyal to God, tried to abide to his laws, a very good Christian.
What happened to him?
EVERYTHING was taken away. Was it because God hated him? No. Of course not.
Maybe, this is a test for you to stay loyal to God in the tough times as well. It's hard, one of the hardest things you'll do, but nothing will change otherwise, and I'm sorry but that's the truth