And sadly. I didn't go through.
But to get back to today. I did something dumb.
I really enjoy Buzzfeed, the video side of it. I should say, the PG side of it. They can have adorable content, but sometimes they can have suggestive content that I avoid. They had an application for freelance illustrators, and I applied to it.
Why did I do that!?
I really love when their content is cleaver and cute, but they also have stuff that is really like almost rated R on their videos. It's not graphic, but they go over topics that are very....well graphic! And they're all about showing stuff with the LGBT crowd and just... *mutters* When I write it out, I think sending that application was a mistake. I prayed that if God didn't want me to have that job, that He wouldn't let me get an interview for it, and especially not to get it.
But what if I get an interview? Does that mean God would want me, as a Christian, to try for it? I mean there are Christians working secular jobs everywhere, but this place is suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper that.
I just feel like I made a mistake and want to take it back but at this point it's gone to the internet. I guess all I can do is see what happens. I feel so dumb.