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Hello Brothers and Sisters.
I feel like I'm dying. I have High Blood preassure, I barely can sleep, my Heart feels like it's burning with Hate in it.
I'm losing weight, I'm not in my Country... I will only be back in June and only for 18 days, so that means I cannot see a Doctor, because I do not have one here yet.
I'm feeling pretty much Weird and Empty. I used to be a happy, "beautiful" and funny young man. Now I don't feel like I used to.
Just so you know, I used to be always looking at girls and stuff ( pretty normal for a 21's year old boy ), now I look and I do not feel anything, so, looks like I lost my "sexual desire" too. And I'm feeling like this at a Month or so!
And so you know, I went to Poland last week in Holidays to see if i "Destressed", I drank alcohol every night ( not to get drunk , just a few beers 4 to 5 and a shot ) , I had this beautiful girl, sleeping right next to my sleeping bag, always "hugging" me and try to kiss me and stuff.
And I was just there, looking at the Wooden Roof, feeling like Empty, waiting for the Sun, feeling my Heart burning with anger.
People, that's not normal I guess, 2 months a go I believe just by the fact that I had a girl sleeping at my rightside I would at least get "excited"!!
And the thing is, I cannot go to a Psychologist or something, because I cannot take any pills, ( long story ), so... yeah.
Do I have a Demon in me? Actually I believe that I saw an horror movie where the guy said some words in some weird language, and then I felt like this , Or maybe I was already feeling like it, can't remember, but just trying to find a "REASON".
So pleaseeeee, my Brothers, I already prayed a lot, and I do not have the strength to continue praying anymore, I feel like I'm fading away, empty, no happiness, no joy, always Stressed and Angry, feeling like punching everyone.
So pleaseee, Help me! Pray for me! I don't know if I can handle one month until I go to an Hospital, I'm just so Tired of my Life at the moment.
I feel like I'm dying. I have High Blood preassure, I barely can sleep, my Heart feels like it's burning with Hate in it.
I'm losing weight, I'm not in my Country... I will only be back in June and only for 18 days, so that means I cannot see a Doctor, because I do not have one here yet.
I'm feeling pretty much Weird and Empty. I used to be a happy, "beautiful" and funny young man. Now I don't feel like I used to.
Just so you know, I used to be always looking at girls and stuff ( pretty normal for a 21's year old boy ), now I look and I do not feel anything, so, looks like I lost my "sexual desire" too. And I'm feeling like this at a Month or so!
And so you know, I went to Poland last week in Holidays to see if i "Destressed", I drank alcohol every night ( not to get drunk , just a few beers 4 to 5 and a shot ) , I had this beautiful girl, sleeping right next to my sleeping bag, always "hugging" me and try to kiss me and stuff.
And I was just there, looking at the Wooden Roof, feeling like Empty, waiting for the Sun, feeling my Heart burning with anger.
People, that's not normal I guess, 2 months a go I believe just by the fact that I had a girl sleeping at my rightside I would at least get "excited"!!
And the thing is, I cannot go to a Psychologist or something, because I cannot take any pills, ( long story ), so... yeah.
Do I have a Demon in me? Actually I believe that I saw an horror movie where the guy said some words in some weird language, and then I felt like this , Or maybe I was already feeling like it, can't remember, but just trying to find a "REASON".
So pleaseeeee, my Brothers, I already prayed a lot, and I do not have the strength to continue praying anymore, I feel like I'm fading away, empty, no happiness, no joy, always Stressed and Angry, feeling like punching everyone.
So pleaseee, Help me! Pray for me! I don't know if I can handle one month until I go to an Hospital, I'm just so Tired of my Life at the moment.
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