I never claimed prophet status. I would never. Tbh i dont want any of this. Not any of it. I never wanted to know without doubt god is real. I never wanted to come face to face with it. I never wanted to spend 33 years unloved, abused in ways you cant imagine, lost, hurt, gone mad, obsessed with finding out everything there is to know about god. I never wanted this life. I'd rather be ****ing dead. BECAUSE THIS LIFE AND ITS ****ING BURDENS IVE BEEN GIVEN IS SHIT. ****ING SHIT. No money. No food. Broken body. No one to rely on. 33 years of living punishment. And for ****ing what? So i can know what others dont? So i can teach them, or try to only to be ****ing judged and ridiculed just like every other ****ing day? So i can watch people love, and fall in love, and be given no ****ing choice but to love them back? To be unconditionally kind, and compassionate, regardless of the insult or injury heaped upon me? So i can spend my entire life untouched, unloved, but desperately seeking and ****ing finding ways to overcome these hurts? So i can better myself in ways i never knew existed, just so i can serve you? **** YOU. And i hope you are at peace with god, and that all your needs are met, and love reigns supreme in your life, because THAT IS THE BLOODY POINT. YOUR JOYS. YOUR HAPPINESSES. NOT MINE. Suffer for the gospel? You've got to be ****ing kidding. You've n idea what real terror, or hate, or rage is. I truly do not think. Or if you do, then i apologise. Ive fought every kind of darkness there is in mankind. EVERY TYPE. EVEN THE VERY WORST. Ive been exposed to hatreds and fears so profound they would have broken anyone not me, and frequently did. Im no ****ing holy man or prophet. Im god's ****ing loose cannon. His madman. Im here to **** shit up so we all can be at peace. Im not christ. Um not ****ing worthy of a title. False prophet i may be, that is remains to be seen. But i wish you all the love and kind days you deserve, even if you are just as arrogant and righteous as i can be.