Still guileless here, so how about I give some stuff I seriously don't know about God to prove it.
1. I don't get loving. I mean I get loving, but is it loving to say nothing when you see something bad happening because the person it's happening to is a brother and has asked for no advice? Is it loving to keep quiet when brothers are doing something away from God's will, but it seems like it's common christian practice, and if I speak it, everyone gets defense so the problem is never resolved? Is it loving to nag?
2. I don't get how the story continued. I mean I get God keeps on doing his thing, and everything works out in his will, but things really have changed since the Bible finished. Jesus confronted a woman who was acting loony and out came Legion. Some slave girl followed Paul and Barnabas around enough shouting that they were sent by God so often, that Paul took that demon out of her. Now we know schizophrenia is a real physiological disorder. How do we know when it is that and when it's a demon? Or what happened since Bible times? Like, Jesus didn't meet any women having their periods back then, because they were unclean so off away from the crowds. How do we know that shouldn't still be a thing anymore? Stuff has changed, but how?
3. Why is the Pentateuch so messed up? I mean, I get it was all on different scrolls and maybe one chapter didn't precede the chapter before it or maybe it did, but that's not what I'm talking about. I'm in Numbers, and this is the third time I've been learning about Passover and that first place the Israelites stayed in after the Red Sea. Why not chronological order? Why not one book of history, one of law, and one of case studies? It feels a bit like remembering a dream. I'm sure it made sense at the time, but it's really confusing when explaining it afterward. It seems to make less sense. And it's God's word, so it can't be that.
4. Trinity? Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? I mean I believe it, but then who do I talk to? And how do I know I'm talking to the right one? And how can I not be talking to the right one, if there is only one God? And yet, there is that Father, Son, and Holy Spirit thing. Looks like three to me, but one. I believe him when he says he's one, but Whaaaaaaaaaaaat?
5. How do we know an OT candlestick means something in the NT. I mean the OT scapegoat meant something in the NT. The Passover Lamb meant something in the NT. The veil into the Holy of Holies means something in the NT, so how do we know the candlestick doesn't? And, if it does, how do we know the cherub on the tapestries around the tabernacle also didn't mean something in the NT? Or how about those hooks to hold up those tapestries? How about the poles? Sure seems like a lot of foreshadowing in the OT, but was it really or are we getting into the same junk English profs do in college? "The author meant the blue wallpaper as a symbol for...", when honestly, the author just liked blue.
6. Practically, how do I follow God 24/7, when my mind twirls and whirls like it does?
7. And, is that my mind or am I really supposed to blame Satan this time?
How hard have I tried? I gave up on figuring out a clear answer to trinity. I'm not chasing down symbolism. I figure if God wants me to know, he'll bring it to mind again when I get to the NT again. I have no idea how to figure out the rest, other than I keep seeing we're supposed to do everything for God so I keep praying and do it as I remember, if I can figure out how. But look at my first question, I don't know how.
This isn't me looking for answers to these question. This is me checking out if I'm the only imperfect Christian on this site.