Why?
I´m a miserable sinner, so why should He forgive me? I simply can´t stop sinning. The best I can do is to "delay" my major sin. He knows I want to stop sinning, to obey Him but I guess I´m too miserable to do it. I feel guilt, shame and sadness because I can´t stop sinning. Even when I´m able to have long periods of obedience, I feel bad and I fear for my salvation. I feel better and happier, that´s a fact, but I keep thinking I have no forgiveness. And in fact I do not deserve forgiveness.
This is strange because I really long for God, I pray everyday, I read the Bible, I have a relationship why Him, I long for videos about Him, I love to talk about Him to others (mostly non-christians), to give my testimony. Recently I´m dwelling seriously into Apologetics which is something I really want to study and do, I keep reading more about Him, but...sooner or later I end up falling again.
I hate feeling guilty! I think to myself that I´m not worth of His forgiveness, so why ask for it? I don´t deserve to be forgiven.
All I want is to love Him even more, to obey Him and serve Him! But I fail miserably...!
Please, brethren, would you give me your advice/help? Pray for me if you please! Thank you!
May God bless you!
I´m a miserable sinner, so why should He forgive me? I simply can´t stop sinning. The best I can do is to "delay" my major sin. He knows I want to stop sinning, to obey Him but I guess I´m too miserable to do it. I feel guilt, shame and sadness because I can´t stop sinning. Even when I´m able to have long periods of obedience, I feel bad and I fear for my salvation. I feel better and happier, that´s a fact, but I keep thinking I have no forgiveness. And in fact I do not deserve forgiveness.
This is strange because I really long for God, I pray everyday, I read the Bible, I have a relationship why Him, I long for videos about Him, I love to talk about Him to others (mostly non-christians), to give my testimony. Recently I´m dwelling seriously into Apologetics which is something I really want to study and do, I keep reading more about Him, but...sooner or later I end up falling again.
I hate feeling guilty! I think to myself that I´m not worth of His forgiveness, so why ask for it? I don´t deserve to be forgiven.
All I want is to love Him even more, to obey Him and serve Him! But I fail miserably...!
Please, brethren, would you give me your advice/help? Pray for me if you please! Thank you!
May God bless you!