I don't present my "theology" but Bible truth. You can hurl whatever epithets you wish, but you cannot refute Bible truth, and Gospel truth. I have said it before and I will say it again -- Five Point Calvinism is a gross distortion of the Gospel and Bible truth. And I am not the only one who has recognized the errors therein. Perhaps its time to change your tune and your theology and stick to Bible truth.
There are many parts of the Calvinism theology I disagree with, one being the Total (depravity) as this word in itself describes a man as a destitute person, who has no hope, and cannot do anything for himself.
Having said that, I do believe that God chooses you based upon HIS knowledge of the future. That You will in the end TOTALLY Believe and Love HIM. I believe Man of His own 'free-will ' makes choices and GOD having seen these choices one makes in their lives decides to choose you or NOT.
Yes, you are Pre-Destined ( the ELECT) because in GOD's eyes, He already knows what the choices by way of FREE-WILL YOU have already made by the time the Last Member of His Church is SAVED!
He already knows that if one is saved in their earlier years for all the right reasons, during their life-time, they(many) can and do change their world views, lifestyles, religions, etc. and stray away from the Total Faith that HE requires.
I think the Reformed Theology has refined the Calvinist view and is better at explaining God's WORD. It follows many of the teachings of those who lived during the Reformation period and like its condemnation of the teaching of the RCC, it today focuses on the Evangelical movement and its need to be refined as many are straying away from the Word of GOD.