I believe that I clarified my point in post #38.
I have been lambasted as being full of pride while others here are being praised for their humility.
But there is such a thing as false humility; and sometimes those who are perceived as having pride do not in fact have pride.
1 Samuel 17:28-29.
There is a type of pride that is righteous and holy.
Psa 31:23, O love the LORD, all ye his saints: for the LORD preserveth the faithful, and plentifully rewardeth the proud doer.
When we take pride in our work, that is not necessarily a bad thing.
I, too, have been lambasted and attacked, and so relentlessly that I wound up with 30+ people on my ignore list. I am now removing them from the list as I come across them. But I have struggled so much in this life, that I have found that I just don't want to be a part of that aggression. The Lord has beaten me down. I mean, at age 54, the last three years of my life have been horrific, and that is AFTER being molested as a little boy. This is AFTER I was certain that my father was about to murder me as I went to the police to prevent him from murdering my former step-mother. (Yes, I saved her life, risking my own to do so.) This is after sustaining ridiculous beatings from my parents as a child. These last three years have been NOTHING compared to those days, and in fact, I'd much rather endure those struggles than endure what I have experienced of late.
I am the one that has decided to change. I am the one who has decided to stop battling everyone, thinking that it is good, Righteous, and Noble to defend myself (as I have the full right to do). Though my sense of balanced and healthy confidence is through the roof, and it is, I have decided to stop showing that incredible confidence, and lower myself to others. Why? I didn't want the negative attention anymore. I just got tired of it and decided that instead of presenting myself as balanced and confident, it just wasn't worth the fallout.
Now, I accept you as my total equal, for I am better than no one. In fact, I am worse than most people in terms of my past conduct. I welcome you to join us with a soft and gentle spirit. You are extremely important, not to mention very insightful. But this persona that you present is actually preventing others from ascending to it. The Truth that you are offering is being ignored far more than you might realize, and I KNOW that this is not what you are after. I KNOW that you want to share with others because you care and want us to know what you know. And, I thank you for that, for this is why I invited you to a previous thread, because I respected what you had to say, but you have opted not to participate. Again, you are important (at least to me AND to our Lord, God).
I hope that you find my words to be helpful and not discouragement. I am encouraging you to make a change so that you are not lambasted as you have been in the past. I know how it feels and it is painful.
Respect to you, good sir.