I feel let down in my walk with jesus, at first when I became a Christian 2 years ago, it was good but I struggled with being a Christian, all my Christian friends was always saying give your trouble's to jesus I did and I didn't feel what they was saying. now I have so much trouble at home I can't focus on jesus anymore plus I always felt not good enough around my Christian family,,, so I left the church as I felt not good enough for even talking to jesus. and I feel that I'm a real bad sinner, and I'm so depressed at the moment,,
Hi a few ideas
Be careful not to focus on accusations all day long. We all have our custom made pity parties. Some life or the party other party poopers.
One thing I have learned that has helped me to work through those kind of tribulations is that "doubt" is not the opposite of faith .Unbelief "no faith" alone is.
The accuser of the brethren the spirit of lies accuses those who do believe God as God gives us the faith to make it possible to believe .. he accuses us constantly day and night . The father of lies does not accuse unbelievers. He would try and reconcile doubt as if it was the same as unbelief (no faith) It can drive some to no despair.
We as new creatures have the recourse to believe God or what Hebrews 4 calls "mixing faith" believing God not seen. This so that he can give us rest from the constant accusing.
It does not mean we can ignore our brothers and sisters in Christ .
When the Son of man was in the dessert and not eaten for forty days at the beginning of Christ's ministry he was under much tribulation because of his experience. Eating the food or meat of doing the will prompted by the father in heaven... three times Jesus said it is written and the relief or rest came, the accuser left.
I would suggest do give up guarding the faith of Christ that guards you as the sword of the Spirit put on and keep on the armor of God .those is no armor for the backside. Christ is our rear guard. he has both sides hem us in with his great love and mercy.
You might want to seek professional help .
Revelation 12:10 And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation,
and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the
accuser of our brethren is cast down, which
accused them before
our God day and night.