Every time that I tried to study the scriptures I mistakenly thought there were too many scriptures that contradicted each other, mostly with the salvation scriptures. When I was 50 years old I thought I was smart enough to figure them out, if I purchased a concordance, and studied enough. It took me 12 Years of study until I gave up and told God that I would just have to live my life without having the knowledge of the truth.
Was not very long after, that the salvation scriptures began to harmonize. Looking back, I realised if the Holy Spirit had revealed the truth to me, with my prideful attitude, I would have taken credit for myself, instead of giving God the credit.
No one, that I know of on this forum, agrees with my interpretation of the scriptures. But I don't let that bother me, because I think that I have been given the knowledge of Christ's doctrine, by the revelation of the Holy Spirit, an this doctrine was not popular with the majority of God's born again children when Jesus taught it.
God has withheld this doctrine from most of his born again children, for reasons that I do not know. Jesus instructed his apostles to go and preach this doctrine to the lost sheep of the household of Israel, which are those that he blinded to the truth.
I feel compelled to try to inform those that do not understand the doctrine of its truths, knowing that unless they deny their own entelect the Holy Spirit will not reveal.
If you have any questions about the doctrine, I would be more than happy to try to answer them.