I’m hoping that some of you folks can help me to believe in God again. I truly want to. I’m just struggling with it and I can’t lie to myself and tell myself I do without a doubt, but I really don’t feel it deeply and I can’t rely on it to guide me.
Can anyone share anything with me to help me to believe? To help me feel God’s presence? Thank you
Before I was saved I would ask myself questions.
Am I a christian?
I don’t steal or harm anyone or lie.
I didn’t know at the time where any particular verses were in the Bible, but somehow God showed me this verse,
Isaiah 64:6 KJV
But we are all as an unclean thing, and
all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.
Deep down I was unhappy, which made me to question my existence.
Again God showed me another verse,
Revelation 4:11 KJV
Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and
for thy pleasure they are and were created.
Some years later, God overturned my life, it was like a long bad dream.
I was saved but,
I spent 7 miserable years outside of the Will of God because of circumstances.
God used his creation to soften my heart.
I was very angry and confused.
I began to say, why?
God posted me in a remote area, where I was surrounded by nature at its best.
The most beautiful birds, came so close to me. If you can imagine the most beautiful orange wild fox with black trimmings and white sox decided to be friendly.
I was standing in the paddock admiring the scenery and turned to find the fox, seated and looking at me, at his left side behind was the cow standing there looking at me. I was immediately stunned, as this was against nature, a cow will always chase a fox away.
What I find to be very effective is to speak to God. Tell him everything that is on your heart and mind.
And ask questions.
We cannot put conditions on God.
God allows these trials to bring us into a “large place.”
Psalm 118:5 KJV
I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord answered me, and set me in a large place.
God bless you abundantly.