Was Jesus ever hurt?
Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”
Matt 26:39
The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time.
John 21:17
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?
Psalm 22 Matt 27:46
I tried once only to be positive, to ignore the hurts and pain within, to deny the problems I felt, and nothing changed. The problem was I denied I had been hurt, I denied I shut people out or held things private, I denied I needed to be open and vulnerable, rather I should protect myself from my fortress, and never expose who I really was because no one could be trusted. I felt alone and lonely, though I knew Jesus I was depressed.
What changed within was firstly to admit I was really really hurt, angry, confused, lost. I blamed others and shut out the love I had against those who continually caused me pain. Love was a distant word to me, though I understood it in Jesus, I was lost in it personally. I then discovered so much of what I had locked away was the things I so desired and wanted.
For some this is self indulgence, self pity, being negative. For me, I think every mature christian needs to have been to this place and been healed. We do not have to be unforgiving or defensive, because we know we are loved by Jesus, but sometimes understanding how hard you finding things is just about being honest which is the beginning of freedom and asking the Lord for help.