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Dothack...I thing the reason your anxiety hasn't gone away is because you won't let it. You obsess over it. It consumes your thoughts, your actions, your everything. Anxiety takes up so much of your waking moments, you can't let it go. You aren't going to say, "Hey God, make it stop" close your eyes for a second, and then POOF like magic it's gone. You are holding on to it so tightly despite wanting to let it go that it can't leave. Somehow you're going to have to figure out a way to let God help you the way you need it.