Hi chasten
I understand what your problem is, but I also understand its source. So why don't we start there. It seems you forgot a few things... or never learned them. That's cool. Which is why one must try and aid one another. O..k.
The first thing ... just as a friendly note... the sms language really makes it hard to read your language. Not everyone is fluent, and I must admit I struggled here and there. I get you are upset, but then it is even more important to write in a clear language so that people can ultimately understand you. This is not serious though.... just a friendly thought.
Secondly. You forgot your place in the relationship. As I said, maybe you were never taught this, but you are a servant and he is above the rank of a King. Imagine you walk in the army first day and then you start talking like this to an admiral. You'll be doing dishes and fitness for the next couple of months. So the second thing you need to do is to humble yourself. For God rejects the arrogant but lifts up the humble. So one of your problems is just this. Get your mind into that of servanthood and being a child of God, rather than trying to boss Him around. God must withdraw if you do this. The beginning of knowledge lies in the fear of the Lord. Not in trying to tell God what you want and he must deliver.
Thirdly just as a matter of respect. You spell God with a small letter as if you are not worshipping the God that created the entire Universe, yet at the same paragraph you spell satan with a capital as if you are giving it glory. Get your priorities straight. If you want to move closer to God, obey the ten commandments or in the least try to.
You speak of God as if He owes you something. He physically designed you. He made every peace of your being, your hair, face and not only did He do that be He also gave you an opportunity to life in abundance by worshipping Him. Get this straight. God doesn't owe you anything. In actual fact I don't anyone on earth can make that claim. Are you really so used to having things you're way that you do not understand the way that God works. It is not about you. It is about Love. It is about everyone around you. About you giving your utmost for them in humbleness and peace and joy, especially when everything goes bad for you. To believe in God is not so you can have what you want or so that you can have joy. But so that you can be an instrument or tool in His hand so you can spread His love to others, regardless of your feelings. Your feelings must be submitted underneath the Will of God. Only then can you see truth and understand truth. Only then can you be free of the enslavement of the desires which the devil let's put upon this world.
You are just like me still very young. Life has not yet touched us in full. But understand that arrogance and hate and unforgiveness will destroy you. Anger is not the fruit of God. Which means that something let to your anger which was not of God.
Don't think that you will gain anything but to feel a tiny bit better about yourself for a few minutes by acting out on God. Not that He can't handle it. But you would not gain anything. What you receive is by His grace and His grace alone. Some of us will sow others will reap. The reaper is not more or less important than the sower. Each one has his task and will be measured according to his own works by God. Nothing you think, do or say is out of measurement. Your salvation came by Christ. But that does not mean that you can act out of arrogance. We all fail sometimes. But careful that you do not accept it as that you have a right. By giving your life to God, you gave up your rights to God. The right that you have according to scripture is to be called a child of God. That is it. Everything else therefore you must do in obedience and humbleness and inside the grace of God.
Last thing. Let your yes be yes and your no be no. Don't make promises. Keep yourself in humbleness and plead for His mercy daily. And learn to adhere and hear His voice fully and do what He asks you in full obedience. And if you have questions. Please feel free to ask. But understand that there is a protocol by which God works. And if you do not wish to follow it. Then think of it in the following way. Even today you cannot just walk into the President of the US office and talk to him as if he is junk. If you don't get shot, you will probably get thrown in jail. You first need to make an appointment and then if he accepts to see you, then the people involved with his office will spell out the protocol you must follow to the letter while you are with him, and tell you exactly how much time has been allocated for you. And if you do something outside that protocol they will remove you immediately. Likewise it works in any monarchy. Now Jesus is the King of Kings. God above everything. He gave us the grace to pray to Him. But He gave a precise protocol in which we should pray.
I understand what your problem is, but I also understand its source. So why don't we start there. It seems you forgot a few things... or never learned them. That's cool. Which is why one must try and aid one another. O..k.
The first thing ... just as a friendly note... the sms language really makes it hard to read your language. Not everyone is fluent, and I must admit I struggled here and there. I get you are upset, but then it is even more important to write in a clear language so that people can ultimately understand you. This is not serious though.... just a friendly thought.
Secondly. You forgot your place in the relationship. As I said, maybe you were never taught this, but you are a servant and he is above the rank of a King. Imagine you walk in the army first day and then you start talking like this to an admiral. You'll be doing dishes and fitness for the next couple of months. So the second thing you need to do is to humble yourself. For God rejects the arrogant but lifts up the humble. So one of your problems is just this. Get your mind into that of servanthood and being a child of God, rather than trying to boss Him around. God must withdraw if you do this. The beginning of knowledge lies in the fear of the Lord. Not in trying to tell God what you want and he must deliver.
Thirdly just as a matter of respect. You spell God with a small letter as if you are not worshipping the God that created the entire Universe, yet at the same paragraph you spell satan with a capital as if you are giving it glory. Get your priorities straight. If you want to move closer to God, obey the ten commandments or in the least try to.
You speak of God as if He owes you something. He physically designed you. He made every peace of your being, your hair, face and not only did He do that be He also gave you an opportunity to life in abundance by worshipping Him. Get this straight. God doesn't owe you anything. In actual fact I don't anyone on earth can make that claim. Are you really so used to having things you're way that you do not understand the way that God works. It is not about you. It is about Love. It is about everyone around you. About you giving your utmost for them in humbleness and peace and joy, especially when everything goes bad for you. To believe in God is not so you can have what you want or so that you can have joy. But so that you can be an instrument or tool in His hand so you can spread His love to others, regardless of your feelings. Your feelings must be submitted underneath the Will of God. Only then can you see truth and understand truth. Only then can you be free of the enslavement of the desires which the devil let's put upon this world.
You are just like me still very young. Life has not yet touched us in full. But understand that arrogance and hate and unforgiveness will destroy you. Anger is not the fruit of God. Which means that something let to your anger which was not of God.
Don't think that you will gain anything but to feel a tiny bit better about yourself for a few minutes by acting out on God. Not that He can't handle it. But you would not gain anything. What you receive is by His grace and His grace alone. Some of us will sow others will reap. The reaper is not more or less important than the sower. Each one has his task and will be measured according to his own works by God. Nothing you think, do or say is out of measurement. Your salvation came by Christ. But that does not mean that you can act out of arrogance. We all fail sometimes. But careful that you do not accept it as that you have a right. By giving your life to God, you gave up your rights to God. The right that you have according to scripture is to be called a child of God. That is it. Everything else therefore you must do in obedience and humbleness and inside the grace of God.
Last thing. Let your yes be yes and your no be no. Don't make promises. Keep yourself in humbleness and plead for His mercy daily. And learn to adhere and hear His voice fully and do what He asks you in full obedience. And if you have questions. Please feel free to ask. But understand that there is a protocol by which God works. And if you do not wish to follow it. Then think of it in the following way. Even today you cannot just walk into the President of the US office and talk to him as if he is junk. If you don't get shot, you will probably get thrown in jail. You first need to make an appointment and then if he accepts to see you, then the people involved with his office will spell out the protocol you must follow to the letter while you are with him, and tell you exactly how much time has been allocated for you. And if you do something outside that protocol they will remove you immediately. Likewise it works in any monarchy. Now Jesus is the King of Kings. God above everything. He gave us the grace to pray to Him. But He gave a precise protocol in which we should pray.
for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. 