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I was once in an auto accident, where I came close to death. As I lay beneath the wreckage, and regained consciousness the first time, I asked myself if this was a dream. The second time I gained consciousness, I was aware of the tremendous pain, and I prayed for death.
Several years later, I was hit and run, while riding a motorcycle. Again, it was a near death experience.And again, I prayed for death.
For many years, I said that if I ever have to go through a similar accident, I would prefer to die, than to have to endure such pain again.
It wasn't until years later; when I got married and had my first child, that I thought differently.
Things are different now. I know I don't have much time left. My medical condition is incurable. I have self imposed a quarantine, so as not to infect my family. I no longer attend church for this same reason. This illness causes sleep deprivation, which has a mental effect of depression.
So the question is; is it wrong to ask God for relief? Is it wrong to ask God for death to come sooner, so there can be rest?
Several years later, I was hit and run, while riding a motorcycle. Again, it was a near death experience.And again, I prayed for death.
For many years, I said that if I ever have to go through a similar accident, I would prefer to die, than to have to endure such pain again.
It wasn't until years later; when I got married and had my first child, that I thought differently.
Things are different now. I know I don't have much time left. My medical condition is incurable. I have self imposed a quarantine, so as not to infect my family. I no longer attend church for this same reason. This illness causes sleep deprivation, which has a mental effect of depression.
So the question is; is it wrong to ask God for relief? Is it wrong to ask God for death to come sooner, so there can be rest?