Interesting question. I have read the scriptures, and I know I must follow Him and have given my life over. Besides, it hurts if I don't, and bottom line, I believe in the scripture. But at times, this does not mean I don't struggle with this.
For instance, I longed to be a Zumba instructor, join a gym, and get involved. I was led to a gym (and did think this was my desire). But guess what happened? I was dancing, doing all these awesome workouts, getting involved, and was about to be asked to be an instructor. It was like supernatural or something. The next thing I know, God presents all this garbage at the gym (major stuff). I exposed my personal trainer, got two people fired, and told the gym owner about the division going on in the gym. Shoot, later I found out the gym owner was a Christian, seeking the Lord, and had a prophetic dream right before I exposed this information. He thanked me, and it explained alot about the troubles he had been having.
I remember a prayer I had said to myself right before all of this went down....... "Lord, let my desires and Your thoughts be my thoughts". So when we ask this and give our bodies over, even our desires (wanting to get involved in a gym) are HIS!! It's all about HIM. I certainly did give my body over to HIM and He used it for HIS glory. hahaha
After this whole fiasco, I had to leave the gym and I said, "God, can't I even have a gym membership without having to do your work?" lol..... I remember Him saying, "Nope". Sigh..... Keep on keeping on!!!
Rocky
ps. I have to say, that was one of my most favorite assignments! I was in the best shape of my life!