You know what, maybe this was the wrong place for me to ask questions. Growing up, I was taught that God was understanding, loving, and forgiving. I truely believe that He'll be able to see past everything. I know He loves me and I know that my boyfriend loves me and I know that I don't have to sacrifice one of their loves for the other. That would be absurd and I know that God wouldn't want me to be depressed and miserable like I was.
I'm sorry that it took coming here and getting ridiculous answers from strangers to understand that.
Hey poi, I think it's unfair, if you came here asking a question while only willing to accept one answer.
If you truly have been born again, you should be deeply concerned about how God see's your situation (as described in scripture), not how anyone else's sees it.
I can't say it much better than roboop, but firstly you have to recognise, that the only time God sees sex as 'pure and sinless' is when it is done within the context of Mariage- 'The marriage bed is undefined' Hebrews 13:4. All other contexts are sin.
Secondly, Psalm 37:4 says 'acknowledge God in all your ways and he will create the desires of your heart' this means that if you are following God's word, the things that you desire will most likely be his will. But seing as you are ignoring his instruction, it is very likely that this desire that you have for your boyfriend is not Gos's will at all.
Thirdly, just as roboop said, 1 Corinthians 6:9 teaches that those who practice fornication show that they have never been born again, you can fall into it every now and then but you won't continue in it because as acts 20:22 says, 'the Holy Spirit compels us of our sins'. Now seing as you don't regret your sin, its highly likely that you don't have the Holy Spirit to compell you. So the issue isn't the fornication, but your unreedemed heart.
The Gospel
So firstly poi, the Ten Commandments say
5) Honour you father and mother
7) Do not commit adultery, and Jesus said even if you look at someone with lust, you have committed adultery with them in you heart
8) You must not steal (that includes little things like music of the Internet etc)
9) You shall not lie
10) You shall not envy
If you have committed any of these sins, you have to recognise that you, just like us have 'fallen short of the glory of God' Romans 3:23. And you have violated God's law, so you must be punished and you will inherit the 'lake of fire' Revelation 21:8.
However, God sent his Son to die so that those who believe on him won't perish and will inherit the kingdom of God. But to do this, Jesus says in 12:25, that you must first recognise your sin, and hate it.
Secondly, secondly, you must repent (mark 1:15) that means to do a 180 degree turn towards God from facing your sin.
And thirdly, you must believe on Jesus Christ and trust him for your Salvation (Mark 1:15)
If you are truly reprentant and sincere about this descision, Jesus says in John 3:7-8 that you will then become Born again, and God will send the Holy Spirit to live in you who will begin your new life and begin to transform you into his likeness. Your responsibility from then in is to keep free from sin, you do this by fixing your eyes in Jesus Christ as he is revealed in the bible (Hebrews 12:2). This is because he is our perfect example as he was 'tempted just as we are but was without sin' Hebrews 4:15.
I hope you deeply consider what I have said, you eternal future hangs on this descision.