I have read a number of your posts here... gosh, I remember being twenty two; I hitch-hiked out west, from Toronto to Vancouver, with two friends and my guitar, and a knap sack on my back. I was young and restless, and reckless, too, but that was the very last time I ever hitch-hiked. When I was 24 I went to see the Monty Python movie, The Life of Brian, and I almost walked out because I was at first so offended, which puzzled me somewhat, since I did not consider myself to be a religious person or a Christian, although I had been brought up fairly strictly in that fashion... I rejected it all as a teenager. If you feel/believe you have a relationship with God then it is very likely He has a call on your life that will become more and more clear to you as you progress through your life and seek Him out. You may rest assured that He keeps His promises, and reveals Himself to those who diligently seek Him, even knowing that it is not really Him we are seeking at first, since we do not know Him, and have many preconceived prejudicial ideas about Him that actually prevent us from wanting to know the one true God.
You seem to have done some fairly serious research already. The internet is amazing in this regard, making so much available to us at any one time, given the proper motivations to follow through. I have learned so much just talking to people online in this fashion, not so much as I am speaking to you now, but on a couple of other sites where I have manly engaged with atheists who are fairly hostile to Christians/Christianity in particular, and religion in general. Your tone does not come across to me as theirs' does, no, not at all. With that said, consider the following:
Driving home at three o'clock in the morning it is easy to rationalize to yourself that it would be safer for you to get home as quickly as possible because you are tired, but you assume that nobody else is around to be impacted (no pun intended) by your speeding, which presents two problems: 1. If nobody else is around, there is nobody for you to harm but yourself, so speeding is not really justifiable. (Not to minimize any damage you might cause to yourself should an accident occur with a stationary object due to your tiredness.) 2. Assuming that nobody else is around to be impacted by speeding could be an assumption another driver makes. Outcome: two vehicles collide at high speeds or cause a horrific accident while attempting to avoid the other at high speeds. Or a pedestrian may think at 3 am that nobody is out on the streets this late and walks down the middle of the road where too late you see them. That is just one example of how your thinking is somewhat faulty.