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I have dealt with anxiety, panic attacks, depression and OCD. I once thought I was condemned to hell. I have had thoughts of what if the rapture took place already and I am still here, on more than one occasion. I don't consider myself depressed anymore. I like to sing of God's mercy toward me and praise him in song. I don't usually have panic attacks now, but still experience anxiety sometimes. Sometimes the anxiety is due to needing to eat. Once it was just there and I did not know why. It subsided with time.
Somewhere around the 8th or 9th day, another one rose up, and I panicked, thinking they were all coming back. Nope. It faded within a few hours.
Two Christmases ago, I had PTSD. I knew why, and had to keep going back to "it's not happening anymore. It's over. BREATHE! And then keep going."
Early last summer, I finally noticed all those thoughts and pop-up freak-outs had disappeared, and I didn't even notice they were gone. Monday, we were headed to the place where most of the trauma happened. It felt like PTSD never left, but then I remembered that hive. We did go to that place, and everything was fine. The terror subsided even when we were still there.
Anxiety is something that happens to all of us. Panic is something that happens to all of us. We've both gone through stuff that made it worse than most folks get. And now we're learning to pick out the differences. A wayward hive may show up again, but the illness is leaving our buildings.