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I been a loner most of my life and I can't say it's by choice. Sometimes I think being the only child made me socially awkward. Like I don't know how to be around people. I was always nervous, afraid of their judgement. I wanted them to like me but it just never happened. I never had a playmate in elementary school, people in high school steered clear of me. I did end up meeting a couple cool kids in alternative school ...turned out some of them were just boys crushing on me. Well one friend there lasted a lifetime but he lives so far away I only talk to em on facebook. Ahh facebook! the invention of that sort of helped me heal socially. I have made a couple of friends there buts till no one who would ever come visit me or call. To be honest phone convos make me nervous too.
well turns out I am not alone in living such a lonely life...I have seen other people online who feel that way here at CC. So I will extend my friendship. I will probably never meet anyone from here either but, talking helps kill the pain. Even just on private messages and forum.
I will be starting a new job soon, though ill be socializing there I am not really afraid like I used to be. Probably because I don't care what my coworkers think and I am not going in with the idea of trying to make friends, just money. But it will be nice to be around people. To joke and laugh and be myself without concern.
Sometimes it still just makes me sad, like I could have been a really great friend to someone. Oh well I guess God wants me to be alone. At least I got my son.
well turns out I am not alone in living such a lonely life...I have seen other people online who feel that way here at CC. So I will extend my friendship. I will probably never meet anyone from here either but, talking helps kill the pain. Even just on private messages and forum.
I will be starting a new job soon, though ill be socializing there I am not really afraid like I used to be. Probably because I don't care what my coworkers think and I am not going in with the idea of trying to make friends, just money. But it will be nice to be around people. To joke and laugh and be myself without concern.
Sometimes it still just makes me sad, like I could have been a really great friend to someone. Oh well I guess God wants me to be alone. At least I got my son.