Day 2 of the end of my engagment to the one who i thought was my Love. (ANGER)

I know that us living together was wrong in Gods eyes. But, He did not have anywhere else to go. No friends would take him in, what did God want me to do? Let him live on the street?

I thought I did the right thing. I was celibate. I kept the faith. he was looking for place on his own. Then everything went sour.

Why did he have to do this to me? He was supposed to love me.....I thought we wanted the same things...
If he didn't love me He could have told me so....
If It was too much He could have told me so...
It could have ended without me finding the texts from someone else.

I know what the word says. We must be obedient no matter what.
I'll try to look at it as a blessing....not seeing him not praying with him not hugging him....
I'll try to act like its ok that I can not do those things anymore because he left me with no choice...

I tried so hard to make it work. I believed us....
And for him to give up on us, on God and just leave hurts more then anything I have felt so far in my years of living.

Did I do something so wrong to deserve the coldness,the cruelness...

It's a curse and a blessing to stand for what you believe is right. It sucks to always be the one who has to pick up the pieces...

ANGER is all I feel right now... know it's wrong and I'm tying to put it away from me like the Lord says but it hurts....betrayal hurts....

I know we betray the Lord everyday, I am trying to understand..im trying to put myself in Christ's shoes...

But It is so hard to forgive...
It's so hard not to hate...
It' so hard....

I´ve seen that movie too (being a movie "star", too).

Sis, I don't know if this helps at all, but you're actually allowed to be angry. The Bible says "Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath:" in Ephesians 4:26. It's totally normal to be upset at a betrayal, and to even be angry at him. The sin is only when you act on it in the wrong way, like if you were to go toilet paper his mom's house in revenge; that sort of thing. I'm praying right now that you'll get peace about the situation; hope it gets better. I know it hurts, but I also know that Jesus loves you and can use the situation for His glory . -Jill

LOL^ at toilet paper his moms house hahahahahaha

tter007 you gotta forgive to be forgiven, yes it's hard for you though but in the book of Luke 1:37 it says "Nothing is impossible to God" , so pray for strength 'from' God to forgive.

BTW DONT WORRY THERE IS PLEEENTY AND A PLENTIFUL OF FISH IN THE SEA =)