Dealing with anger,fear and resentment

Today I was very tired. I got two hours of sleep last night because I studied till 3 am and then my son woke up at 4am. I get really cranky when I am tired and stressed. I prayed to God this morning to get me through class, get me through the day. He did...but when I got home all I wanted to do was melt away into nothing. I had to come home to my grandma who had been watching after my son while I was in class.

I love her but she's the most negative ju8dgemental person I know. She didn't take into account how tired I am, she doesn't care about me anymore...just about my son. I am glad she loves him but she flat out ignores me when I speak to her and could care less about my health and my well being. All I wanted to do was relax after a long day . She criticizes every move that I make as a parent, as if nothing I do is good enough. She even treated me that way before I had a child. Frankly she drives me insane , but she's the only person I have who can help out.

Today my son was very irritable, because she woke him from his nap. I tried to get him to go back to bed but hes a cranky kid and he always has to cry himself out of it till he relaxes and goes night night. I put him in his bed , he cried so I gave him his pacifier as always and I left the room so he would calm himself as he always does when he settles down. I know my child. She had to interfere and go get him out of bed. So he crawled around crying ,pawing at his eyes and laying on the carpet ...like he does because hes tired.

She accused me of just wanting him out of my way for my own selfish reasons...which really set my temper off. I put him back to bed and told her to leave him be! That I was tired and needed rest too!

He cried and got more upset each time she entered his room. Finally she got angry at me and told me she was walking home because she couldn't stand to be around this anymore " hes just a baby". So she left.

I feel so angry and hurt. She treated me like I am a bad mother. I know my son I know his lil temper tantrums and I also knew he would shortly go to sleep. She didn't give me the benefit of the doubt. Now I am so angry I think I am cancelling thanksgiving and just pushing her out of my life ( our life).

1. The boy knows who to get her against you.
2. She knows how to be a *model* mother, the thing is she doesn't get U are a single mother... Do U have to pay an outsider
3. *...She criticizes every move that I make as a parent, as if nothing I do is good enough...* That' s cultural. She thinks she know more than you and, basically, SHE FAILED the way you face that now, but unconcientely, undermines you. HELP her to see you are TRYING TO DO YOUR BEST.

There is no reason for you to add your negative reaction to her negative reaction!

She is lovingly taking care of your son, it is so good. She is thinking such things that she gets angry and walks home, it is her problem. It is only a problem for you that she wouldn't obey you and leave him be, you are the mother.

Sometimes a smile, a hug, and a kiss is much more effective than reason when someone is unreasonable. It is just so very difficult when your head is buzzing with exhaustion!

never rob yourself in order to punish others. that s just a thought I keep with me second
never push someone out, if you really feel that strongly about grandma.. then it may be more prudent to gently pull away and pray for that situation to come to, or that God would lead you to some type of resolution that will be helpful not hurtful.

sorry to hear that
hope you get better rest.