I can honestly say when I found God, I was at my worst. I was full of hatred, regret and self destruction. I would find amusement out of planning my own demise. I lived a very lucrative life, able to buy all I wanted, jealous eyes looked my way whenever I would enter a room and somehow I believed this was true happiness.
As I began to consider keeping God in my life; life failed. He made everything that I thought was "fun" fall through the floor boards as if dust in the wind. I broke down, cried all night and screamed out my hatred for a God that could cause me to feel this way. I was on the verge of depression.
Later that week I asked God what he wanted me to do. He told me to quit my job and put my faith in him like never before. I was scared. I asked myself over and over, "how will I pay my bills?" and so many other questions. He wanted me to trust him and I did. I now have a better paying job, am much happier with my life and still feel lonely. I know I have God, but I need someone to hug, kiss and just talk to. I will need to work on this unorthodox trait in my life, but I am so glad I listened to him.
I was lost and he found me. I found him. We found each other and with each other; we found love.
As I began to consider keeping God in my life; life failed. He made everything that I thought was "fun" fall through the floor boards as if dust in the wind. I broke down, cried all night and screamed out my hatred for a God that could cause me to feel this way. I was on the verge of depression.
Later that week I asked God what he wanted me to do. He told me to quit my job and put my faith in him like never before. I was scared. I asked myself over and over, "how will I pay my bills?" and so many other questions. He wanted me to trust him and I did. I now have a better paying job, am much happier with my life and still feel lonely. I know I have God, but I need someone to hug, kiss and just talk to. I will need to work on this unorthodox trait in my life, but I am so glad I listened to him.
I was lost and he found me. I found him. We found each other and with each other; we found love.