People

Today was really great for me. I am one day further from God as I continue down the same path I was on before I chose to give my life to the Messiah. I figured I would skip church and drink. I did skip church, but alcohol seems to be distasteful to me lately, perhaps my increased levels of testosterone due to my new exercise routine and supplementation regime'. As I went through my day of pure happiness, I found myself realizing I do not have the same ecstatic feeling I once experienced while worshipping God. Perhaps, and this is merely a hypothetical analysis of my current state, I am unable to be truly happy when I know I commit willful sins. I just want to go out, drink, hang with beautiful women and ... yeah...

I think I am actually losing my grip on reality and will probably join the military this September when I realize the civilian word is full of hatred, pain, denial and so much more. I'm thinking I can go overseas for a year~. It's too hard to really focus on God and give him my all when I don't even know who I am.

The truth is, we are to put our trust in God, not in man.
Thats is why Jesus came, so we will have a hope and a future!

God bless
pickles

Brother Sleeis
If you are trying to find fulfillment and peace by going somewhere and doing something to convince yourself of your identity the greatest problem is that you must take yourself with you. Your identity will not be revealed to you by your efforts but in God who will let you see what He sees that He has designed and formed and gifted you because they are His specks His gifts all parts of Himself in you, when you relate to Him in these then you will be fulfilled with all the peace and power in the pleasures of God with no regrets or disappointments.