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Hello my name is Sophie i am going to be 17 in January. I would really appreciate it if people could pray for peace, love, friendships and affection restored in my life again and for me too come out stronger and end up being an inspiring person upon many people's lives. I come across as always happy and bubbly and of course the joker, i'm not academically clever but i am very talented at drama. I'm really depressed in my soul and i really want too to go to church with my arms wide open but because of severe social anxiety, i let it all out in my room whilst listening to christian music, (hill song or Jesus culture) these are the types of Christian music i tend too listen too. My soul, mind and heart is not at ease and is really alone. For this past yr i have just been living in doubt, loneliness, a deep structure of mental pain and my happiness has gone as i feel i don't have any friends which kills me too the point and my hope has decreased. I get some attention from guys, but i'm more of a lover type as i didn't feel happy when i went out with guys for 1 or two weeks. The people i once was friends with either get on with other people or have a boyfriend themselves which don't have any time for me and i really need a group or just even one friend too always be there and share so much banter and jokes with. Anyway all this loneliness and stress has only occurred because i ran away from God as i felt uncomfortable at church due to my anxiety, it lead me too the point where i was so confused that i placed my confidence in the Devil and this lead me to a living hell, i was so lost with who i was and my emotions that i felt so unstable that i had to keep on calling for God to save me again and again and he did, How? he didn't just save me, it took time setting my confidence back on Jesus but Boy it was a hell lot harder to come back too God then running away. I told God i wanted to run away to come out stronger and boy i know it's happening, but it also lead me too a very destructive, dangerous place, which went too far down the wrong way. By living in complete loneliness to defeat my anxiety has worked however it has dragged on so much that my soul and heart just feels completely strangled. i still call for God too rest peace on my state of mind. Thankyou for your time in reading this. God bless
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