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I'm a 6 year US NAVY vet I grew up in a non believing family ,and I was baptized at 18 the feeling was amazing I cant describe it. I slid back to my old ways for many years. I had to go for a operation for kidney stones and the doc overdosed me .I went into respiratory arrest , they couldn't vent me so they bagged me for 12 min. when the emt's got there they got the trake into me took me to the hospital .I was on life support for 3 days before I woke back up , mad as hell. I didn't understand I should have been happy to be alive . I lost the urge to hunt ,I didn't want to kill anything! I've had several near death experiences ,God must not be done with me yet . that's not what I was thinking because I had lost my faith still at this time. siting in my living room I had an overwhelming feeling of something was horribly wrong . 15 min. later I found out my cousin " Faith" was killed by her boyfriend "Israel". I didn't put that together until later. I was working on my house and it started to rain ,I looked up to the sky and asked if I could have a few more min. all of a sudden the sky cleared around my house only. I thought it was clearing from the back side of my house . I went out to the street and looked it was rain clouds all around except my yard . it was like the blues brothers , I wouldn't have believed it if it didn't happen to me. I cant say that it was the exact min but my moms fiancé was killed on his motorcycle in that time frame. Then I found out my nephew "Christian" was diagnosed with terminal brain tumor .He had slipped into comma woke up Christmas morning at chop and spent it with family. Sadly he lost the battle after a bout a year. I was one of the men carrying his casket into the church and I could feel my heat tearing apart my thought swelling ,I was going to breakdown right there. The same feeling I had when I was baptized came over me and took the feelings away ,I didn't know it at the time but it was the Holly Spirit ! Now a lot of things had happened to me to rethink God .I started to listen to Hope fm from Marlton NJ , I liked a lot of what Pastor had to say. They had a showing of a video called "unlocking the mystery of life" it blew me away ! I was a science guy and the facts they present were amazing . Its on youtube 12 parts to it "YOU MUST SEE THIS VIDEO" now I'm really thinking . I was having a one way conversation with God , you know because "He doesn't talk to me". I 'm telling Him I don't feel worthy because of the things I've done in my life, as I 'm telling God this I was clicking the remote to Sheppard's chapel , the first words out of the Pastors mouth were "You are worthy, you are one of Gods elect" the same feeling of the Holy Spirit came over me again . I was driving by Calvary chapel Vinland NJ every day to work and it used to be the old soccer complex it wasn't an elaborate church my speed . I feel God would want money to go to help people not to marble floors or expensive statues . I started to watch my pastor "frank" as he prefers , on churches web site , his wisdom and humbleness was amazing . I started to go and the people were kind and loving .He teaches the word verse by verse it is great. Calvary chapel Vineland NJ. needless to say I've been cleansed again and love my church but most of all I LOVE GOD FOR FORGIVING A SINNER LIKE ME ,AND MAN IS HE PERSISTANT ! lol the best thing is after reading in proverbs I've gained control of my anger I don't fixate on the problems of the world . He has given me peace. special thanks to Coffey Anderson his music fills my cup!